Last year, I found myself in transition in all areas of my life. I had a dead-end job that paid well. I had friends who did not support me when I needed them the most. I suffered a broken heart that impacted every decision I made with respect to relationships. I accidentally burned my hand severely after being stood up on a date on my birthday.
Constantly, I felt like things were out of control. No matter how hard I worked to improve each area of my life, I felt like I came up short. There were days I cried myself to sleep at night, afraid of how bad the next day would be.
I prayed continuously and felt that my prayers went unanswered. What's a BIG GIRL to do in times of transition?
What I started to do was reeavaluate my life and make some changes. I thought about the dreams I had as a child and wanted to pursue them again. I confronted friends who deserted me and abandoned me. I got fired from my job which was one of the best things that happened to me.
So what did I do next? I met a former law school classmate who encouraged me to create a new television show and produce it. She reignited a fire in me to see my life on television. The good, the bad and the ugly. I created a show and within two months, I pitched it to MTV and BET. I then spent months retooling it and then went to the Atlanta Pitch Summit, with no money in my bank account, but a dream to make my television show a reality. I was guided by faith and wouldn't you know it...I met legendary contact who is willing to help me get it on air this year...2012.
I started a lingerie business for full-figured divas. At Curvy Girlz Lingerie, LLC, we create, design and sell lingerie that celebrates the beauty of a curvy woman. A month into starting the business, we took first place in the 3rd Annual Harlem Business Alliance Business Plan Competition. Not to mention, we have been written about in 2 publications and interviewed online by a fashion blogger.
I decided to let go of the men that blew hot and cold, disappeared or treated me badly...I let them go for good. I was no longer interested in dealing with dubious men that hurt me, abandoned me or made me feel like an option and never first place.
I also decided that it was time to heal my broken heart, so no dating, hooking up or friends with benefits. That's not how I am rolling in 2012.
What does it mean to live outrageously? It means following those dreams that you long put to the wayside. It means attacking life and improving all areas of your life. It means being courageous in confronting everyone in your life who is not supporting you and then having the courage to move on. It means knowing that there will be challenges but that you will overcome and all difficult circumstances. It also means not answering to anyone for the decisions that you make for your OWN life. It means letting go of convention, the 9-5 lifestyle, and for less than supportive relationships.
You have the ability to change your life, one decision at a time. 2012 is a new year to change your outlook which will change your life.
Have the courage and determination to live outrageously in 2012!!!